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“Mom I can explain,” Ike pleaded.
“Yeah so can I,” Tay replied.
“Then both of you start!” she yelled as she threw pants to both of them.
“Mom,” Tay began, “We love each other. Nothing happened we were just sleeping in the same bed together. Ike and I always sleep in our bowers you know that. Mom, we’ve done this before. You have to understand we are growing up Mom.”
“Yeah,” we all said. Diana sighed, “I know that. But guys, you saw what happened to Lynn and Zac and it just shook me up completely and this image was NOT the image that I wanted to wake me up in the morning. Just don’t let me catch you like this again. If you insist on doing it, do it somewhere else.”
“OK Mom,” Ike smiled. She just walked out of the room and we all looked at each other.
“Mom, please, just let it go,” Lynn begged.
“OK, well breakfast will be done soon, so get showered and all then come downstairs.”
“All right.”
Zac had already taken a shower and sat at the edge of Lynn’s bed watching TV. When Lynn got out of the shower she fell against the wall in her towel.
“Lynn!” Zac yelled. He ran to her and held her tight.
“Zac it hurts,” she cried, “I was OK a minute ago but now it really hurts. I have to walk though...that’s what the doctor said.”
“Here lean on me,” he sighed.
She leaned on him and he walked her to her bed. Lynn was getting dressed when she called Zac in the room again. He came running in and then stood stunned.
“Zac I need your help getting my shirt and pants on,” she said softly.
“Maybe your mom should,” he said blushing and turning away from her.
“Zac don’t be silly. You know we DID have sex before which means we WERE naked in front of each other before. Please...this isn’t that big of a deal...I REALLY need help Zac.”
“All right,” he said grinning.
“Good now get my clothes on my dresser.” Zac got her clothes and laid them down near her.
“If I’m going to do this I am going to do this right,” he smiled. He gently laid her down on the bed and kissed her stomach softly then slid on her shirt.
“I like your way Zacky.” Zac just smiled as he kissed up to her knee and slip on her pants slowly buttoning them up.
“Do you mind brushing my hair?” she asked.
“No,” he whispered in her ear. After the passionate way to brush her hair Zac discovered, they went downstairs to eat breakfast.
“What took you two so long?” Lynn’s father asked even though he knew.
“Sorry,” Lynn frowned.
“Just eat,” he said sternly.
“Where’s dad?” I asked closing the door.
“He’s out at work.”
“Oh yeah I forgot today was Friday,” I said pouring myself a glass of lemonade.
“Bre, come sit down with me...we need to talk,” she sighed not smiling. I sat near her on the couch and looked at her with a scared look.
“What’s up Mom?” I asked not wanting to know the answer.
“Bre I am so sorry,” she said quietly grabbing my hands. “Bre you can’t go to Europe...I am so sorry hunny. I know how much it means for you to be with Tay but I need you here with me and the family.”
“Mom...why? I don’t want to stay here! I want to go with Tay! Give me one good reason why I can’t go!!” I yelled furiously.
They were both sitting in Ike’s room on his bed. Tay was outside playing basketball with himself and Zac and Lynn were out walking. Since the doctor told them it was the only way to make Lynn feel better Zac was determined to walk as long as it took, up and down the road. They must have passed around five times already.
“OK Ike I’ll call. I just don’t want to let you down if my parents say no.”
“If you can’t then you can’t. That doesn’t mean it’s over. I’ll just need to be with you even more when I get back. Plus I will call, write, and send plane tickets until you come!” Elizabeth began to laugh. Ike began to feel around under her shirt and she grabbed his wrists.
“Do you want me to call? Or do you want to play around?!” she yelled still laughing.
“Call....sorry,” Ike said removing his hands and turning red.
“I’ve never seen you blush,” she said kissing both of his cheeks, “I’ll call.” She picked up the phone and dialed the number.
“Please say yes,” Ike whispered. Elizabeth talked to her parents for a good half hour long and then hung up the phone.
“Well?” he asked. She walked over to him. “Well...” she began
“Well what??!!” he said getting inpatient.
“Can your mom home school me?” she asked.
“Of course,” he smiled.
“THEN YES!!!” she screamed. He picked her up and spun her around.
“Uh!! I love you SO much it hurts! I love you,” he said softer.
“Isaac,” she smiled, “I...I love you too. Well go on, go tell everyone I can! I know you want to!”
“I’ll be back,” he smiled very widely.
“I’m sorry that this happened Bre. I didn’t expect it to, but we will get through it and we will be fine. I’m sorry to disappoint you,” she said softly.
“You didn’t...but at the same time you did. And before I go and probably say things to you that I will regret I am going to talk to Tay. We can talk about this later or something,” I cried walking out the door. My mom just sat back in her chair with tears in her throat...this wasn’t going to be easy.
“Guess who?” I asked.
“Hm...Santa Claus?” he laughed.
“Close but not quite,” I said jumping in front of him.
“So what’s up now?” he laughed.
“We need to talk. There’s some things I need to tell you...privately,” I said as a tear began to come down my cheek.
“What’s wrong?” he asked wiping it away.
“We need to go to the tree house to talk about this,” I cried harder.
“Yeah, OK, OK lets go,” he said looking upset and hurt. He knew something was wrong and he had a feeling of what it was. He just didn’t want to hear me say it. We climbed up and sat in the dark one roomed wooden house.
“Tay,” I sniffled, “My Mom’s preg...pregnant,” I cried.
“So? That’s great...why are you upset?” he asked.
“The first of many reasons is that she is three months pregnant Tay...and she decides to tell me know. Another thing is...Tay I haven’t told you everything...and it’s time you learn some things,” I said softly.
“Go on...” he said looking deeply into my eyes.
“The only people that know about this is Lynn and Liz," I began knowing that was a lie because I was able to tell Nick this when I first met him. We had told each other about our pasts and I felt comfortable, but now I knew Tay had to learn this too. "And well...I only tell really close people to me Tay...and that’s you. OK, well...my family has a reputation of some things. My mom had me at the age of 17...and she wasn’t ready Tay...my father was abusive and anything you can think of he did to me and my Mom. When Jason hurt me like that it was like reliving it all over again and that’s why I was so scared. My father right now...is my stepfather...but he adopted me, and so that’s why I have his last name. And I hate it Tay...I hate it SO much, because when you grow up with a life like I did you never forget it or the pain. And I am scared for this baby Tay. I never had any real brothers or sisters and I guess you can say that this is my Mom’s REAL first time raising a kid. I guess I was just a mess up, or a test dummy...” I cried louder. “And now I can’t go to Europe with you!!” I screamed, “She won’t let me go! And I don’t wanna be around any of them...I am so upset right now...Tay I would give up everything just to have a family like yours...you do not know how lucky you are.” He just grabbed me tight and stroked my hair.
“Bre, I never knew, but I am here now, just let everything come out. What your real father did to you was wrong and how anyone could hurt someone like you is beyond me, because you are living proof of an angle. I love you Bre, twice as much. And I promise I will never let Jason hurt you. Bre, maybe having a little brother or sister will help you, maybe it will give you someone to talk to and someone to take care of. You can help your mom and teach your mom, you know.”
“Tay, but I guess I am jealous. Because when I was little my mother never told me she loved me, and I mean now she does...but she never did, and I mean...I want her to just like have me all over again so I can be raised the right way, you know. I want her to take care of me and love me the way she was suppose to.”
“I wish I could do that for you Bre. But I can’t. I can promise you though, that I will always love you, and I can tell you right now that your parents love you. And when you take care of that baby you can care for it the way you wanted to be cared for and I can bet you any money it will make you feel better,” he said kissing me softly.
“Your right...but I still can’t go to Europe...and I will miss you and I can’t stay away from you that long...Tay...” I cried again.
When he heard me say that I couldn’t go bluntly, I saw tears begin to swell in his eyes. The whole talk was just turning into a big tear fest.
“Bre I can’t just leave you. I love you too much. You helped me make me what I am. And all those girls...you won’t be one of them. Seeing Ike and Liz and Zac and Lynn...”
“Liz can go?” I asked.
“Yeah.”
“Tay. You helped me right now. You showed me that I was going to be OK and not to worry. Tay I will do the same for you. Do this for me Tay. Just promise me you will write, call, just do everything,” By now our tears blended together. He put me in his lap and I wrapped my legs around his back and laid my head on his shoulders. Now I knew I needed to see Nick.
“I will do everything Bre. At least we will be back for your birthday. We will be back in the middle of July.”
“What?! You said it was only going to be two months.”
“Since we took extra time off the extended it to three and a half,” he sighed.
“No!!” I cried, “You can’t be gone that long!”
“I will send for you. Maybe you can spend like two weeks with us.”
“Promise me you will.”
“I promise.”
“Can we just sit here for a while?” I asked.
“I love you,” he whispered.
“I love you too.”
“Guys Bre has some bad news,” Tay started. ‘What’s’ and ‘huhs’ were murmurs I could hear.
“I can’t go to Europe. My Mom’s three months pregnant and she needs me more then anything right now.”
“Bre can I see you in the kitchen for a minute?” Diana asked.
“Sure.” We walked into the kitchen and Diana closed the door then quickly grabbed me tight.
“It’s allright. Tay will stay true. My boys is very well off. He’s the best of my boys. I know I shouldn’t say it but it’s true. I love all my boys the same...but when it comes to someone to rely on he is the one. And you...you Bre are the perfect girl for him. I wish you were my daughter. You sure feel like it. I just wanted to tell you that I love you. I was debating whether to go to Europe or not myself. I lost my baby-sitter, so I figured I would stay here.” I just looked at the women. She was so beautiful, strong and everything I wanted my mom to be. She said she loves me, I thought. It was one of the first times I ever heard a person who could be my mom say that they love me...and it wasn’t even my real mother. As far as I was concerned she was my mom. If God gave me the chance it was then I decided that I would change mothers in a heartbeat...I loved her too.
“Your like a mom to me, I love helping you out. And I love you too. But you better go tell the rest your not going.”
“My family knows. Don’t yell at Tay though, I told him not to tell you because I wanted to.”
“I won’t. I would never yell at him for that. It’s all right but you better tell the girls.”
“No duh,” she said in a hip girlie voice. We laughed as we walked back into the living room.
“Um, my family knows this but Elizabeth and Lynn, I will not be going to Europe. I have decided that I will go and visit for a while but not the whole time. And thanks to Bre now I have a baby-sitter,” she said pulling me close giving me another hug. Tay walked over to me and whispered in my ear, “Thanks for doing this.”
“I wanted to. It will help your mom and I become closer...and right now I think she is the only adult women I have. Maybe not going won’t be so bad,” I whispered back smiling slyly.
“What?” he asked astonished tickling me.
“Lets talk later,” I smiled.
“OK.”
“So anyone want to go get a burger?” Walker asked.
“Sure,” we all replied.
“Why doesn’t everyone meet back here at 5:00pm, that will give you an hour,” Diana stated.
“Tay we got an hour to kill...wanna go for a walk?” I asked squeezing his hand.
“Yeah sure...we can talk,” he winked. Tay and I left while the other’s still sat in the living room talking.
“Tay...we only have two more nights together. I need more time with you. When I get lonely who will I turn to? When I need a kiss who will give me one? When I am scared who will I get a hug from?” I asked while I thought about Nick.
“Me.” We both stopped and he took my hands into his. I didn't think he would say that, but he did and it made me feel so good inside.
“Bre...distance doesn’t matter...that can’t change how I feel about you, and you know that. I love you, and we are under the same sky. All you have to do is look out that window. You’ll see those stars...and so will I. Bre, I can be there for you, even if I am not by your side,” he put his hand by my heart, “I’m always right there,” he smiled.
I smiled back, “I know you are...and so am I. But I also have your mom and I am looking forward to that.”
“What did she say in the kitchen anyway?” he asked.
“Tay...she said she loved me...and that I was like her daughter...” I trailed off.
“She did?”
“Yeah. And if you could only feel how happy I was Tay. That just like made me feel so much better, knowing that someone besides my “mom” loved me and called me their daughter,” I said looking into his eyes. He kissed me softly.
“Tay, you know this could be one of the last nights we have together...” I said softly. He quickly looked up at me.
“I think you know what I am getting at Tay,” I said even softer.
“You want to have sex tonight Bre?” he asked.
“Only if you are protected and you want to of course.”
“Well of course I want to,” he smiled, “I mean I have wanted to for a while now, but I wanted to wait for the right time, and I think it is the right time.”
I hugged him tight, “It is the right time Tay...I know it is. I’ll be at your window at 7:00pm how’s that? Cause I know you gotta pack.”
“That sounds great. Lets head back though...if we’re late we won’t stop hearing it from my parents.”
“Sure.” We began to walk back but all I could think about was what would happen tonight and how it would all work and turn it...all in all I was worried.
“OK,” I chimed.
“I talked to your mom too, Bre. I told her about our plans and all.” I just smiled as we walked out the door. Walker was very serious about his driving so he did not speak at all. Tay and I were lucky and got to sit all the way in the back...away from most of them.
“Can we stay in this car forever?” I asked grinning.
“Sure,” he smiled. We both just laughed as we pulled up to the restaurant.
“Everybody out!” Walker yelled.
“Yeah right, jump back into reality Tay,” I said laughing as we got out of the car. After we were seated and we had our food Tay stood up.
“Can everyone please step outside for a minute?” he asked, “That means everyone in here...come on!” he urged.
What is he doing? I thought. When we got outside Tay stood on the vans roof and looked down. He waited until a big crowed gathered and then began to talk.
“Breanne. I know I will be leaving in a few days, and I just wanted everyone to know how much I loved you!” he belted out, “And I wanted you to know that I love you, and that I will do anything in the world to keep you near me, and nothing can keep us apart, and I want you to know that distance doesn’t matter. Because everyone...see that girl?! See her?! She is an angel and I think God sent her down from heaven just for me, because she is so beautiful, kind hearted and anything you can ever imagine a person could be. That’s why I love her!” he smiled stepping down from the van and walking over to me. He kissed me deeply and held be tight.
I looked over at everyone and they were all smiling, and I could tell Diana had shed a few tears. I began to cry out of happiness as I stared at him.
“I love you too Tay,” I sniffled.
“I know you do, and I love you.”
“I know you do too.” We both laughed as we walked back into the restaurant. We sat back down and I looked at him once again.
“Tay, thank you a million trillion times,” I smiled, “I love you SO much.”
“Taybear why did you do that?” Avery asked. He turned and looked at her.
“Because I love Breanne.”
“Why?” Avery asked. Everyone at the table began to burst out in laughter.
“Finish eating, or it will get cold,” Walker demanded.
“Can I see you over there Walker?” Diana asked.
“Fine.” They walked over to the other side of the restaurant.
“What is the matter with you?” she yelled.
“Nothing,” he yelled back.
“Your son just expressed his love to his girlfriend and you couldn’t even be happy?” she asked.
“It’s just so hard to comprehend.”
“What is Walker? Talk to me...the fact that he is in love?” she yelled again.
“No! The fact that our boys are growing up!”
“Well, deal with it and go back there and apologize...Walker, I love you, but you have to be able to deal with this. Walker we have another four kids to watch grow up, and these three to watch grow up even more.”
“Your right,” he sighed.
“Aren’t I always?” she grinned. He just laughed as they went to sit back down. Walker sat down and began eating again. He did not want to say anything, afraid that once he did his boys would no longer be his “boys” but yet his teens, with girlfriends, and pop superstars. Then of course he had his fifteen year old with the title, “The Hanson Heartthrob.” Diana kicked him in the leg under the table to make him speak.
“Owwhhh boys. I know that I haven’t spoken much about you guys being with these three lovely young ladies, nor have I talked to you at all for that matter. And I am sorry. I’m just upset that I will loose you, you will no longer be my boys. You will grow up. I mean, God, it feels like yesterday you were running around saying how girls had cooties. Now, now you are doing touchy feely stuff with them...” Before Walker could get another word out we all broke down laughing.
“Dad I don’t know what they said when you were our age, but, ‘touchy feely stuff’?” Tay laughed.
“Dad really. You can say making out, or sex,” Ike laughed along.
“Oh well in any case, I just wanted to say I am very sorry. I just can’t believe you are growing up so fast. But if you ever want to talk I am here,” he smiled.
“Thanks daddy,” Mackie smiled.
“Your welcome Mackie but that wasn’t directed at you. I don’t want to have to tell you this until another 10 years or more.”
“Don’t bother, I hate girls,” Mackie stated sternly.
“OK hunny, now finish eating,” Diana laughed.
“Okie Dokie.”
“Breanne? Earth to Breanne?” my mom called.
“Huh?” I said looking up.
“What on earth were you doing? You were almost going backwards you were walking so slow. I called for you to hurry up about five times but you completely zoned me out. What’s the matter?”
“I was thinking,” I said walking up the stairs.
“Well aren’t you going to tell me how dinner was or anything? How about the talk with Tay?”
“Mom, I have a question?” I said.
“What?”
“Why did you ask me that? You never did before, and even if I was to tell you wouldn’t care. Also, why do you insist on talking to me when I told you specifically I DID NOT want to talk to you? Just let it go Mom,” I said stingily as I walked up the stairs. My mom just looked at me with a saddened face.
“I guess I deserved that,” she said quietly, “But I won’t let it bother me...she will talk to me tomorrow...everything will turn out for the better,” she smiled.
“Go on in and get changed!” Diana yelled, “Then we have a movie for you guys.”
“Mom I hope you don’t mind but I just feel like sitting in my room,” Tay began, “But Ike and Liz are more then welcome to watch.”
“OK sweetie.”
“We know where we aren’t wanted at a time of agony and pain,” Ike snickered.
“Shut-up!” Tay yelled.
“Isaac I want a word with you,” Walker said. They had already taken Lynn home to sleep. Zac was already sitting on the couch ready for the movie after casually throwing off his pants in front of everyone so he was in his sleep wear, a tee shirt and boxers.
“OK,” Ike moaned.
“Zac your gross. At least you could have done THAT in private!” Tay yelled going to his room. Walker and Isaac were in the bathroom for their little ‘talk’. Walker didn’t look so happy and Isaac could see that and he really didn’t feel like getting yelled at especially when he knew he didn’t do anything. God it was just a joke, he said to himself.
“What were you thinking Clarke Isaac Hanson?” Walker yelled.
Uh-oh the full name treatment, Isaac moaned to himself.
“Tay has to deal without Bre for three and a half months and you find his pain something you can make wise cracks about. Think again my man. He’s upset. How would you feel is someone made fun of you if Elizabeth or Lizzy as you call her couldn’t go? Answer me!” he yelled louder.
“I don’t know! I’m sorry,” he moaned.
“Ohh no. Don’t tell it to me Mister. Go and apologize to Taylor right now. And if I see you do it again so help you.”
“Dad it wasn’t anything big,” he moaned again.
“Yes it was in my eyes. You don’t understand the circumstances. And Isaac?”
“Yea what now?” he asked.
“Don’t wise off at me!”
“Sorry. Yes, Sir?”
“Maybe you and Zac can learn some things from Tay. Look at all he does for Bre. I mean take today for instance.”
“You don’t think I am a good boyfriend?” Ike asked.
This is so stupid, he moaned to himself, I mean really.
“Yes, but you could be better. I’m sure Elizabeth would enjoy something like that or maybe something else. Or anything just to let her know you really love her. It’s always nice to do for a girl.”
“Thanks dad I will,” he said. Not. Elizabeth knows I love her...God, why won’t he just get off my case.
“Good now go apologize.”
“OK.” They opened the door and Ike saw everyone sitting on the couch waiting.
“I’ll be right back...go on and start the video,” he said walking to his room. He opened the door to his room and he say Tay sitting on his bed looking at the clock.
“Shouldn’t you be crying or something? No, that’s right you just wanted to get me in trouble. Now really, why are you in here? Better yet, when will Bre be at the window?” he asked.
“Sorry you got in trouble. As long as you promise not to say anything...”
“I was suppose to say I was sorry to you but I guess I don’t need to since there’s nothing to be sorry about. I won’t tell anyone, what are you and Bre doing tonight?” ,p>“We are going somewhere to um...well...we’re going to have sex...I hope...well we decided on it this afternoon...since this will be one of the last nights we have together.”
Ike just grinned. “Some words of advice Tay...”
“What?”
“Just be careful. Don’t go getting her pregnant and then leave for Europe.”
“Ike do you really think I am that stupid?”
“Well yeah...” he said walking out of the door.
“What a dork,” Tay moaned.
"Hey this is Nick, what's up?" he answered.
I just began to laugh at the way he answered the phone.
"Bre?!"he asked excitedly.
"Yah hey Nick. Sorry I think that was cute how you answered the phone, sorry. Anyway, how's everything? Sorry it took me so long to call back, God almost a month, but I just wanted to wait for the right time, cause you know you are something real special to me,"I said softly, "Your like my best friend, only bester."
"I almost gave up on you for a minute there! Wait no I never did give up," he laughed,"You are real special to me to Bre, that's why I knew I would here from you again. I missed you and have been thinking about you non-stop. So what's up?" he asked.
My heart raced,He's been thinking about me,I thought smiling.
"Actually a lot, and unfornately it hasn't all been good. Do you mind if I like gush all my bad feelings out to your right now? 'Cause damn I feel like crying and I can't talk to anyone but you and I can't hold it in anymore, and I don't have to long cause Tay and I are going out soon,"I said almost begging.
"Sure, that's what I am here for, go right ahead," he said softly, a little disapointed that she mentioned Tay, he almost forgot he exsisted.
"Before I do, tell me about what you have been up to, gone out with anybody? Did anything cool, going to be doing anything cool?"I asked.
"No not really. I am home right now, we are rehearsing here for the tour that we are doing right now. We already did the U.S. leg and we have done some in Europe. We are back home right now practicing and then we are going back to Europe in a few weeks to finish the tour, then we get a few months off. Now that I am excited about," he laughed,"As for girls, I haven't even really been looking. I actually have just been thinking about you," he admitted.
"Your so sweet, did you know that?" I asked laughing.
"No I didn't, thanks for pointing it out," he smiled,"Now what's going on with you?"
"God so much. Nick, you know how me and my mom aren't the greatest and you know all about my family history and how fucked up it is, but I think my mom is just making my life hell. Nick...she's pregnant. And I am to be honest in a way jealous and so mad at her. I mean finally things between me and her and my dad were starting to look like a family and now she just screwed everything up. Worse, Tay is leaving for Europe in two days and I was suppose to go, and now she isn't letting me. Do you know how much this is crushing me? I mean I love him Nick and I want to be with him and now I can't, and I am just so bummed out. Worse Lynn just got an abortion, she was pregnant Nick, with Zac's kid, and I was so scared for her cause she got all mad at me when I tried to talk to her about it. I got so scared because I thought I would loose her and I can't, I just can't. My lifes just so messed up right now, and I want to be honest with you. Tonight, Tay and I, we are going to have sex, or we wanted to, we planned on it and I am so nervous. I mean I don't know what to do or what to expect..."I trailed off crying.
He sat on the other line and just listened to the whole story. I feel so bad for her. This must be so hard, but I am so glad she is coming to me about it, because I realize now I am in love, at least I think with her and I want to be the one to help her. I'm going to help her, because she loves Tay and I except that and I don't mind being a best friend.
"Bre, first off, your mom loves you. You and I both know that and her having a baby can't be easy for her either. You have to realize this, of course you are going to be angry and edgy towards her, there is nothing you can do about your feelings, but you have to look at her side to. Maybe she wanted to be pregnant again, to try again and see if with this child you four could grow very close. Just remember that. It's OK that you are not going to Europe. I will admitt it will hurt like hell, but I will be here and you won't be alone. Tay will be there too, just not physically. As for Lynn, you two are still together and I don't want you to loose her either, and I can promise you, you won't. You two are like sisters and I know nothing can come between that. As for the sex, well, I am a guy and I have had sex and all I can say is that it is suppose to be beautiful. I won't say my first time, which may I say was my only time, isn't fulfilling and different. It deffinately is an amazing feeling, but it is so much more when you are with someone you love, and you love Taylor. Things will be fine I promise," he said soothingly, "Please don't cry, I hate to see you in pain."
I just smiled and suddenly all the tears went away. Something about him. I don't know what it is, but something about him makes me feel so good,I smiled.
"Thank you Nick, thank you so much. You mean so much to me,"I said happily.
"I know you are probably going to have to go, and I don't know when I am going to talk to you or see you again so I have to say this. I don't want things to get weird or anything, but I have to say this. I haven't seen you in forever or even talked to you, but I have gotten such strong feelings for you, feelings of love. And I totally respect the friend thing and I love being your best friend and I will continue to be your best friend, but I just want you to know that I care about you so much, and I really want to see you. Bre, I know that I am probably going to hurt myself in this situation, but...Bre...I love you," he said lovingly.
Oh my God...he loves me. I don't know what to say except...I thought.
"Nick, I want to see you again. When Tay leaves I am calling you and we are making plans. I miss you and though I love Tay and he is my boyfriend I want to see you too. Because you are my best friend and I want you to know that you own some of my heart to, and if I wasn't with Tay I would be with you. You aren't going to hurt yourself either Mr.Carter because, I love you too," I smiled, and that was the truth.
"Frack where were you?" Brian asked.
"Bre called and as you can tell we talked for a hour and fifteen minutes, but who's counting. Anyway, God, she is so amazing and she is so nice and she told me all of her problems. She said that I was always able to help her and then I told her how I really felt about her, and that it doesn't matter that I can't be her boyfriend, but that I love her and I don't want anybody but her. And well, she said that she is going to get together with me and she will call me in a few days. Tay is going to Europe and so is Lynn, Elizabeth and the other guys, she can't, long story, anyway, she said that she loves Tay and that he is her boyfriend but that, she loves me too!" he said louder and faster running out of breath.
Everyone just smiled and congratulated him that he was able to talk to her and tell her how he really felt.
"I'm happy for you Nick, just remember she is a friend and that you can't have her. She is in deep love with Taylor, something that she's not with you. So don't get TOO excited, but enjoy it because you deserve it, you are doing so much for her,"AJ smiled, patting him on the back.
"Thanks I know, I know. But I think I am going to go to bed and have happy dreams," he smiled goofily. He was DEFFINATELY in love.
"After you tell us the WHOLE conversation in detail," Brian urged.
"OK,"Nick smiled remembering his wonderful night.
“Hey your early.”
“Um...yeah...” I laughed. He sat down near me.
“Tay...do you feel a little weird? Like maybe nervous and kind of like, I don’t know.”
“Actually, yeah...” he said softly.
“Well lets just go because sitting here talking about us having sex soon is making it even more awkward,” I laughed.
“OK, just hold on,” he said digging under Ike’s bed.
“What the hell are you doing Tay?”
“Getting a condom...Ike keeps a box under his bed...like he ever used one,” he said stuffing one in his pocket. He turned toward me and saw me laughing.
“What?” he asked.
“I don’t know. I just think it’s funny Ike keeps condoms under his bed and he never even has had sex...is that like suppose to give him good luck?” I laughed.
“Who knows!” Tay smiled, “Well lets go.” We both jumped out of the window and we ran back to the field we once sat in the rain in. It looked beautiful out like it always did. I stopped him in the middle and grabbed him close and kissed him.
“Wait a minute Tay, look,” I said pointing to an opening in the trees where you could see my driveway, with my car leaving.
“Where are the going?” he asked.
“I don’t know lets go see. We could crawl in my window and see if they left a note. I made it look like I was sleeping in my bed.”
“OK.” When we got to my window I pushed it open and we crawled through it into my room. They had left a note saying that my dad had to go do a business run and that my mom was going to go along. They wouldn’t be back till tomorrow and they didn’t want to wake me so they left that note.
“Tay this means...”
“We can stay here,” he said finishing my sentence.
I threw the pillows off my bed and walked up to him. He grabbed me and started kissing and rubbing me gently. We walked over to my bed and he laid me down. He lifted up my shirt slightly and started kissing my stomach. I was running my hands through his hair the whole time. I put my hand in his back pocket of his jeans. I pulled him up to my face and pushed him close. I tried to unbutton his pants but he took my shirt off first. His cold hands rubbed over my chest and his warm breath beat on my neck. I threw off his shirt and he sat up as I rubbed his chest and kissed it. He laid down and let me get on top of him. I began kissing him be the rim of his pants, he shook slightly.
“I’m not going to hurt you,” I whispered in his ear.
“I know,” he said out of breath.
I slid off his pants and rubbed the inside of his legs. He pushed my hands away and managed to get my pants off. Soon all of our clothes laid in a heap by my bed. What I was so nervous about came naturally and I realized how much I really did love Taylor. It was a new experience for the both of us and it was amazing to share it together.
“I figured,” he said opening the door. “Tay’s not here...and...the box of condoms is out...Great now I have to cover for the idiot,” Ike moaned. But inside Ike was jealous and at the same time happy. He wished he could so Liz how much he loved her, but at the same time he was happy for his brother. He put the box away and walked back into the living room.
“How’s Tay, Ike?” Diana asked.
“He’s sleeping,” Ike lied quickly.
“OK, lets not bother him then,” she smiled.
You better not or you will be in for a surprise, Ike laughed to himself.
“Yeah that’s best,” he said.
“I love you Tay,” I said softly.
“I love you too,” he said putting come ice cream on my stomach and breasts then licked it off. I felt sticky and looked at the clock...it was 1:00am. When we were "done" with our ice cream and had fun for a second time I laid gasping for more air.
“I’m going to take a shower, I will be back. I just feel sticky,” I said putting ice cream in my mouth then kissing him.
“OK,” he grinned. After I got in the shower, to my surprise he jumped in.
“Tay!” I screeched. He just began to kiss me all over under the hot water.
“I was trying to clean myself,” I said smiling.
“Well, that will just have to wait won’t it,” he laughed. I put my hands on his hips and pulled him close.
“Two can play at this game,” I said slyly. I ran my hands up and down his wet back and kissed every inch of it. He moaned slightly but I never saw him the way I saw him right then. It was like we learned a totally new side of each other...and it was a side that we both liked. We got out and dried off. We didn’t get dressed but instead we just laid back down since it was 2:00am.
“Tay maybe you should be going,” I said kissing his forehead.
“Ohh,” he moaned, “I don’t wanna.”
I just laughed, “Tomorrow Tay, you will see me tomorrow, I promise. I mean look at all this cleaning I have to do,” I said pointing to my room.
My sheets were full of ice cream and God knows what else. Furniture was knocked down and clothing was everywhere...it looked like a tornado just hit down. I kissed him deeply.
“Good-bye Tay, I love you and I will be at your house at noon tomorrow.”
“I love you too. Bye,” he said kissing me as he climbed out of the window. I just smiled and then looked at my room. It was going to be a LONG morning, but what we just did hours ago was worth all the cleaning in the world.
Back to Tulsa: A Love and Hate Story
Chapter 26
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