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“Tonight’s the dance,” Tay stated.
“Are you going Ike?” Zac asked.
“No, I am going to let you love birds go alone. Plus, I have to catch up with my school work anways.”
“Oh, OK,” Zac laughed.
“Tay, what about fans...won’t they bother us?”
“We’ll keep them away, we are Hanson boys!” Zac yelled in a superman voice.
“What Zac is trying to say is, don’t worry about it,” Tay laughed.
“Did you bring a dress Lynn?” I asked.
“Yeah, two actually, did you?” “No, can I please borrow one?” I asked again.
“Of course sista!” she yelled as she through a dress at me.
“Thanks, ”I laughed.
Lynn and I had just gotten done quickly changing and freshening up when the door flung open.
“You guys ready? We want to go around and say hi to our friends, we wanted you guys to come, wanna?” Tay asked as his other two brothers stood by him.
“I know I do,” I replied.
“Yeah, that will be cool...if you guys promise to knock next time. We could have been naked,” Lynn said sternly.
“Not bad!” Tay laughed.
Lynn and I just gave disgusted looks and walked with them to the car.
The boys knocked on the door and bunch of their friends greeted them and pushed us into the house closing the door quickly behind us. We sat quietly in the living room next to Tay and Zac. Their friends weren’t half as good looking as they were.
“Guys, this is Breanne and Lynn, they are our dates for the dance tonight,” Tay smiled.
“Hi,” they all grunted out looking us over. I was disgusted and I could tell Lynn was to. Did they not hear Tay say we were their dates, I thought to myself.
“Girls, this is Ashley, ”Tay pointed to a boy being bashful in the far corner. He pretty much reminded me of Tay, just uglier. At least he’s nice, since he doesn’t talk, I thought.
“And this is Keegan,” Tay listed, hitting the boy sitting in front of him on the floor. Keegan wasn’t half bad, infact I found him pretty cute, but the guy was a showoff. Everything he did he thought he was the best at, and boy did he brag. Boy is this guy a joke, I thought.
“Um, this here is Aaron,” Tay continued pointing to a very short boy sitting near Ike. Now Aaron I wanted to just laugh at. Where do they get their friends? I mean I don’t want to judge or be mean but God, I thought. Aaron was a tiny thin little guy with a shaved bald head. He looked very silly in my opinion, and he laughed at EVERYTHING.
“Now this here is Morgan, and the one sitting near him is Howie,” Tay finished. Morgan was the “cool” type. I could tell he was very egomatic, and very conceded. He thought every girl loved him, Lynn and I didn’t. Finally there was Howie. Howie looked exactly like Ike and was the same age. Only Howie had brown hair, and green braces. It was funny how each of their faces cringed when they laughed. It was funny, and Howie was the only gentleman of the group, when he spoke, he said just the right words. I liked Howie, and in all Howie was my favorite.
“Wow these are great,” I said putting them on.
“The best for my girl,” Tay laughed. I nudged him, “Thanks,” I smiled.
“Let’s go slow pokes,” Zac said beginning to skate away.
Taylor and I stood up and grabbed hands. We quickly began skating together.
“We have one hour, then we better get home so we can get ready for the dance,” Tay shouted to everyone.
“OK Mom,” Zac yelled to Tay.
“This is great, thanks Tay,” I whispered to him squeezing his hand a little tighter.
“I am having a really good time Bre. You make me forget about everything, thanks, I really like your company. You mean a lot to me,” he whispered back.
I felt good inside, but I just wish that he would like me more, then just as a great friend and a little more. I wanted him to have the same feelings I do towards him...then again...maybe he did. We rollarbladed around the vacant lot for a little more then an hour. We were having so much fun none of us wanted to leave. I luckily didn’t fall but unfortunately Lynn and Isaac collided right into each other. Tay, Zac and I laughed as they each tried helping each other up, which didn’t succeed. The whole afternoon was loads of fun, but it was tonight I was looking forward to.
“Let’s go, everybody ready?” Diana asked.
“Yeah,” we all replied.
Diana drove us to the dance and said she would pick us up at 10:00pm when the dance ended. As she sped away in the family van Tay and I looked into each others eyes. It was our very first official date, and I could tell we both were excited about it. As we walked up the stairs and walked into the dance it was amazing. I never knew so many teens lived in Tulsa, but they did. Unfortunately Tay’s obnoxious friends were there, thank god they were already dancing and didn’t notice us come in.
“Let’s dance,” Tay said.
“That’s what we’re here for, right?” I asked.
“Yeah,” he laughed.
The DJ began playing “I’m Gonna Miss You Forever” by Aaron Carter. Tay grabbed me close and we began to sway back and forth. I didn’t notice anyone else in the room. It was Taylor and I, that’s what I cared about.
“Are you having fun?” Tay asked.
“Lots,” I whispered in his ear.
It was 8:45 and Tay and I were having a blast. I was amazed at how he swing danced, he was great. I had taken swing lessons so together we really swing danced awesome. He knew all the different moves. We were really dancing up a storm. Then the worst thing that could have happened...did.
“AHH!!! Look it’s Taylor!!!” a mob of fans screamed as they pushed me away and began circling around him.
I looked at the girls and then the girl that must have been the “leader” of the bunch walked up to him. She had looked like she was just plucked from Glamour Magazine and placed right in front of him. He instantly forgot that I had even existed. I quickly sat back down by myself. I smothered in my own self pity. Maybe Tay and I weren’t meant to for each other. I had already drank two cokes and he continued dancing with ‘that’ girl who’s name I found out was Tracy. What a slut, I thought to myself. I decided to call Diana.
“Hello?” she answered.
“Hi.”
“Bre, is something wrong. You sound like your crying,” she said sweetly.
“I am,” I decided I mine as well tell her why since she would only be asking anyway, “a mob of fans came rushing up to Taylor and then I guess the 'leader' walked right by him. Diana she looked like she had just been plucked from Glamour Magazine. I am not having a good time, Tay isn’t even paying attention to me, can Ike please come get me?” I begged, “Please?”
“Sure honey, just calm down. Things will work out. I think I have to teach Taylor a lesson of respect when he gets home. And don’t you go and start feeling like you are the worst, ‘cause honey, he might of just lost the best girl he could have ever gotten,” she laughed.
“Thanks, bye,” I quickly hung up the phone thinking no better of myself as I walked outside and down the steps to wait for Isaac.
My night got worse as I saw Lynn and Zac perched on the steps making out passionately. Is that all they ever do, is make out? I moaned to myself. I knew I was only jealous. But at the moment I didn’t care. Lynn and Zac noticed the tears streaming down my face and came and sat by me. I tried to hide and suck it all in, but it was already to late.
“Bre what’s wrong?” Lynn asked rubbing my back trying to comfort me.
“To make a long story short, this model girl walked by Tay. He went after her and got what he wanted shall we say. Anyway, he hates me and doesn’t ever notice me, I am not having fun so I am going home,” I cried.
“My brother did that? He never would do that,” Zac said stunned.
“Ike’s coming to get me and here he is, bye,” I yelled running to the car, not letting Lynn or Zac get a word in edge wise. As I sat in the passenger seat Ike gave me a kind-hearted smile. “I heard what happened,” he frowned.
“I thought he liked me,” I cried louder.
“He does, in fact he has never acted like that before. He was probably just being a dumb ass, which he was. He does like you,” he smiled.
“No he doesn’t,” I yelled. I pounded on the car seat as we pulled in the driveway. Ike quickly ran and opened my door for me. He helped me out and as I began to walk away he grabbed my hand and then held them in his.
“No matter what happens, I am here for you Bre. He was a jerk, I am not a jerk and I will help you through this, I can reach out for your hand,” he whispered as he gave a reassuring hug.
“Thanks,” I whispered back as I gave him a quick kiss on the cheek.
“Forget it, I don’t want to see you Taylor,” I yelled.
“Tough,” he yelled back as he slammed the door behind him and sat next to me.
“Listen, sit down, say what you want and then get out, I don’t want to see you right now,” I cried.
“Listen I acted like a jerk. I know that I guess I got carried away with that girl, actually I got really carried away. I don’t know how to explain why or anything. I guess everything was perfect, and then I had to do something to fuck it all up, so I did,” he said looking down at the floor and shedding a few tears, “ You have every right to hate me and never have feelings towards me again.”
“Taylor, do you love her?” I asked.
“No in fact when I saw you leave I walked home and relished in my own self pity. I felt horrible, and I deserved it,” he sighed, “ I am really sorry you don’t have to forgive me. I was a jerk and I will never repay myself for what I have done to ruin what probably would have been the best thing in my life.”
“Come here,” I whispered.
“What?” he asked leaning close to me.
I kissed him. I knew he was sorry and I knew he got carried away. Every boy has their moments. I also knew that if I was to do what he did, he would forgive me, so it was the least I could do.
“I love you Bre, will you be my girlfriend?”
“Yes, I love you Taylor.”
Tears welled up in my eyes once again. He said he loved me. I thought I was just a really great friend and a little more, but he was in love with me, and I was in love with him.
“Don’t cry,” he whispered.
“I’m just so happy. I love you Taylor, and when you said you loved me, everything seemed to be perfect, everything is perfect.” He held me in a tight embrace. “This is how I want our love to be forever and ever. Close and comforting,” he said kissing me lightly on my lips.
“Me too Tay,” I sighed back. He wiped away my tears and we kissed again.
“Bre. I love you, and though you are leaving tomorrow I want you to know that I have never felt the way I do with you towards anyone before, and I never will,” he said in a soothing voice.
“Neither will I Tay,” I replied. Tears streamed down my face and into my mouth. I could taste the saltiness and joy. “Neither will I,” I said in a very faint whisper.
He didn’t hear me.
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Chapter 10