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God what if this doesn’t work? I mean what if he leaves me? What if Aubrey comes back...I don’t know who I would choose. Why can’t I just look past this age between us and look at all the good that is poking through? Most of all why did I bring him into this mess I call my life? Why? Simply because I know that no matter how much of a mess it is he won’t leave, she sighed, And that, that scares me.
“Hey baby, morning,” he yawned holding her tighter.
“Morning,” she smiled dully.
“You OK sweetheart?” he asked with a worried glare.
“Yeah, just thinking about my baby, that's all,” she sighed letting a white lie slip.
“You mean our baby,” he grinned kissing her, “God I love you. I am so glad that I have you and a baby too.”
“I love you too,” she said meekly.
See Kayla, this is what scares you, she said to herself, I know I love him, more than the world, but instead of just letting the feelings go freely I’m still hiding. I shouldn’t have to hide from him, why am I? God damnit!
He wrapped his arms tightly around her, rolling her over to face him. Suddenly all of her thoughts vanished as she looked into his eyes. Their foreheads touched as their mouths clasped together.
“Let’s just lay here for a while,” he sighed.
“All right,” she smiled.
If it was one thing she couldn’t complain about it was the safety of his arms.
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