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“Hey Bri where’s Leigh?” she asked as she saw Brian pass her upstairs in the hallway.
“Downstairs,” he said softly back to her.
As she began to walk downstairs he grabbed her arm lightly, “Kay listen to me. Last night, that wasn’t you. I don’t know what got into you, but please sweetie, never do it again, OK? You scared me, really bad,” he said softly.
She looked at him, scanning his eyes for a moment. There was a pinch of fear mixed with a load of sadness, Kayla finally realized she messed up. She hugged him tight and kissed him on the cheek.
“Bri Bri I am SO sorry if I scared you. I know it wasn’t me, but I mean it was like that surge, I won’t do it again,” she smiled.
He grinned back, excepting the answer and let her run downstairs.
She saw Leigh in the kitchen grabbing her purse.
“Hey Leigh?” she asked.
“Oh hey Kayla, what’s up?”
“Um...what are you doing today?” she asked as she quickly drank so orange juice.
“I am going to just get something to wear tonight and then going back to Bri and my place to get ready, then here,” she smiled.
“Can I come? I mean I want to get something for tonight I guess,” Kayla said shakily, just wanting to get out.
“Are you sure? You don’t wanna stay here and primp?” she asked, “I mean I would love some company though if you wanna come.”
“I just want to get out of here...away from him,” she said a little softer.
“Then get your purse girl! Let’s go shopping!” she laughed.
She made Kayla smile for the first time that day and Leigh-Anne knew she and Kayla were going to have a lengthy talk. As they were walking out Nick came running up to Kayla. Leigh-Anne stopped by the door and to watch nonchalantly.
“Kayla, where are you going?” he asked.
“Um...out with Leigh-Anne,” she said softly.
“Oh, I thought maybe we could’ve talked about last night...” he said trailing off with a saddened look in his eyes.
“There’s nothing to talk about, it was an accident, I should’ve never asked you to do what you did,” she said as she walked out the door before he could say anything else.
Slowly he found his way back up to his room, to sulk as he had done so many times before.
Leigh-Anne and Kayla had shopped for a good portion of the day. Leigh-Anne had gotten a long black dress with thin straps and a V-neck that had strings of beads bordering it. Kayla had gotten a strapless bright red top that came to a point in the center and showed some hip on the sides. She bought pink metallic capri pants to wear with the shirt. They both bought matching shoes that were white, high and had ‘2000’ written on the straps. As they dropped their bags in the kitchen and Leigh-Anne fell exhausted into a kitchen chair.
“Wow you and Brian have a nice house, I’ve never been here,” she smiled.
“Yeah, we both wanted a place where we could hang our hats together,” Leigh-Anne grinned.
Suddenly Kayla saw Tyke scurry into the kitchen, “Lil’ Tyke!” she yelled, “I’ve missed you!”
Leigh-Anne laughed as she saw Kayla fuss over him. Kayla put him down and then smiled back at Leigh-Anne.
“Well it’s only 3:00 pm, I figure that we can start getting ready around 5:00 pm and then we can ride over around 7:00 pm or so. For now though you and I are going to sit down and have a little heart to heart. I couldn’t help but over hear you and Nick talking, and girl...we have to figure this out,” she smiled, “And who better to help you then Leigh-Leigh.”
Kayla began to laugh, “I was hoping you’d say that, cause’ man do I need to talk.”
“Good,” Leigh smiled as she got up and they both walked into the living room.
Kayla got comfortable on their plush leather couches. Leigh-Anne walked over to the stereo system and turned on some soft music then sat close to Kayla.
“First, Kayla what was up last night?” Leigh said with sadness in her eyes.
“I don’t know it wasn’t me, I drank a glass of Vodka straight up and before you say anything I do think part of it was the alcohol talking. I am glad that Nick and I did that though, it was about time. There were so many little things leading up to it, we just needed to get it out of our systems.”
“Yes, but Brian did talk to you this morning right?”
“Yeah, why? I mean I apologized again and more thoroughly to him this morning.”
“Good, he needed that. Last night before we finally got to bed all he did was cry Kayla, he was scared. Blaming himself for the whole mess...” she trailed.
“But it wasn’t him, God it was just me, I fucked up there’s nothing else to say about it,” Kayla sighed, “I mean it wasn’t even Scott who pressured me, it was me who pressured me, you know?”
“Yeah, just don’t do it anymore,” Leigh-Anne smiled, “Now onto the more important things. What happened last night, what did Nick do to you that he wanted to talk to you about. You didn’t like...have sex did you?” she asked hesitantly.
“Oh no, no, no,” Kayla smirked, “That would have been awful.”
“OK, just checking,” Leigh smiled, “So go on tell me the story.”
“Well last night I was just crying in bed, I couldn’t sleep because of what happened. Well the next thing I know I hear Nick coming in my room. At first I ignored him, but then he laid down next to me. I turned towards him and he just you know, brushed his hand against my cheek, and just started crying, apologizing over and over for everything he had ever done. All I could do was apologize back because that’s all my heart wanted to do. When he went to get up I stopped him. I asked him to let me sleep in his arms Leigh, and then he laid with me, wrapping me up in them. All I could think about was how perfect I fit in them, how amazing they felt. Then he started singing to me, and it was so beautiful, and then next thing I know I’m asleep.”
“Kayla...” Leigh smiled draping her arm around me, “Of course that is going to be confusing, I mean...”
“Leigh, I mean I don’t know why I said what I did, I don’t know why I wanted to be in his arms. I mean this morning I came to a conclusion. I’m falling in love with Nick, and the more I see him the more I fall. So I wanted to get out so I wouldn’t have to see him.”
“Kay why are you doing this. If you are in love with him then be with him, don’t deny yourself this,” Leigh-Anne said looking at me.
“Leigh I can’t, no one understands. I’ve only had one boyfriend. I fell in love with Aubrey when I was fourteen, he was my first and only boyfriend. I’m no longer in school, I’m going to be tutored, I won’t have any guys to meet, unless I go out. I mean this is all like new to me again, you know?”
She shook her head yes, “I know sweetie, but you can’t deny yourself love. You and Aubrey had something amazing but everyone can see your hurting and the only reason your hurting is because we all see your falling in love but not allowing yourself. It doesn’t matter how many boyfriends you had, the fact is someone loves you more then the world, and he’s trying his hardest.”
“It’s not just that though. Nick’s 19, and that scares me, a lot. I’m only 17, I’m not even an adult and he is. He has been an adult, he may still be a teen but he’s going to be 20 soon. I mean how can a man be in love with me? It just scares me, I’ve known Nick for so long, and I trust him with all my heart, but there’s still part of me that just can’t believe it’s true.”
“Sweetie you and Nicky have the same birthday...don’t you see that he may be turning 20, but you will become an adult, your going to be 18 January 28th, you both will be adults. I know you’ve heard it before but age doesn’t matter, it’s only two years, if you trust him then you shouldn’t care about age.”
“I know, I’m just scared, this is my second time falling in love, and it scares me that I was in love with him before I broke up with Aubrey too. No matter how much I think I love Nick, I still want to go with Scott too. I mean part of me wants to just try something else, you know? I mean I know Scott and I will never work, I think of him as ‘Scott Moffatt’ and he sees me as...hell I don’t even know. It’s just the fact that I want to try things out, you know? I want to get a few dates in before I settle, AGAIN,” Kayla sighed heavily.
“That’s totally cool too. I mean I know that Nick isn’t exactly happy with it, but that’s because he is the type of guy that has his pride hurt easily. He knows that there are millions of girls that would die to be with him, but the one he wants just won’t commit. Just go with the flow, let your heart lead you. Have fun tonight mostly, I mean enjoy your date with Scott, live it up, but also remember your feelings for Nick. He’s not giving up any time soon...but if you wait to long, he may be hurt for good,” she smiled and warned.
Kayla just smiled and gave her the biggest hug.
“Thank you SO much Leigh-Leigh. I feel SO much better that I have all this off my chest, I’m sorry that I made you sit here for two hours, but man did I need to vent. Thanks, thanks a lot,” Kayla smiled widely.
“No prob Bob!” she laughed, “Why don’t we go get ready, I’ll help you with your hair and make-up for your date,” she nudged winking.
“Oh stop it, if you all are going to embarrass me tonight I won’t have him come,” Kayla retorted.
“Don’t worry I’m just playin’ witchya!” she laughed, “Oh and Kay?”
“Yeah?”
They got up and started walking upstairs with their bags.
“I’m going to make an appointment for the beginning of next week so we can take a trip to the OB-GYN. It’s been a month and I think it’s time that we go see what that baby’s up to, OK?” she smiled warmly.
“OK, thanks for all this Leigh, I mean I would never be able to do this alone.”
“Well hopefully you won’t need me because you’ll have a certain blond boy that will always be there too,” she grinned.
Kayla hit her playfully, “Maybe!”
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